Thanks for sharing, great input!
It's great that you have learnt your lesson and that you are in the process of changing. Don't blame yourself, mistakes are good to make if you learn from them. Almost every successful person has had a breakdown and came back stronger!
And you are right, our time and our health are the most important things in life!
I would like to share this story, but not today. It will be for all, not to repeat such mistakes. But English is not my native language, and it's hard to convey the range of emotions and experiences properly. If I try to write a story quickly, it will be bad, and I want to transfer all their frustrations, rotten side of human nature. I would like to after reading people thought ten times before taking a stupid decision.