Hi eveuncovered. I discovered your blog through the #roadtosteemfest posts that I have been awful at engaging properly with... but this is going to change.
I have no well meaning advice, proclamations that yoga is the way to solve all your problems or big bag of weed to wave at you like Bob Marley had all the answers 😉.... although his music is awesome... and in fact I'm gonna youtube a bit of bob right now while I write.
I guess I can relate to this post somewhat, although everyone's experience is different, but I've been living with depression/anxiety for many years and have many coping strategies. I get swings similar to yours, periods of deep malaise followed by up's a mile high.
One thing I've noticed, is that humans have this deep seated desire/need to judge, regardless of if you've let them know how you feel, that it is something chemical going on in the brain, synapses misfiring or whatever. And with these judgments come the inevitable advice. Many people just need to let you know what 'they think' can help you, when in fact you know completely what can help
There are things that I know help me, some of which are ones that I can not buy or provide for myself, which just makes matters worse.
but it is not as simple as the 'just meditate' crew would have you believe. Anyway, I'll finish up by saying that your post did indeed help remind me that I'm not alone in these struggles as you hoped it might
maybe to show that if someone else feels the same, they are not alone in this. Dear lord, this is the one thing where I don’t want to be special and the only one this messed up.
and you made me laugh too
I really am not suicidal, I’m deadly afraid of dying, I would never do that to myself. So if you ever find out I’ve offed myself, and left a goodbye note, don’t believe it, someone killed me and made it look like a suicide.
People flip their lid when someone starts mentioning the word suicide. Reality can be completely subjective sometimes and some people just can't wrap their head around the idea that mentioning something doesn't mean your about to go do it. Anyway, nice to discover a new interesting steemian to follow. Maybe we'll bump into each other at steemfest, I'm glad today is a bright sunny one 🌞💪
Sorry it took me a while to get back to your comment, had to get the brain to the right place in order not to give a "thanks for the comment" type of response.
I wonder how many people dead with depression/anxiety and never really try and understand where it comes from and how to fix it naturally. There have been times when I have been ready to go to the doctor and say that just give me something to level me out so I don't have to have these mood swings, but I'm glad I haven't done that.
I love talking about deep and dark stuff, and with humour added to make it a bit easier to deal with. I think we need to be able to talk about serious stuff without freaking the fuck out at a sight of "trigger" word like suicide. There are still too many taboo subjects and those are always the interesting topics to have!
See you soon at Steemfest! 🤗