It's been a month since I stopped writing and posting articles. This break came after spending 7 months writing and posting every single day, despite having a very demanding daily job. Once the 7 months period ended, I decided to stop and recover for a bit after so much work.
I had a bit of a vacation. I spent some time with my girlfriend. I spent some time at home. Then I had to do some work again. Now I am, hopefully, finally free of any responsibility, at least until I get back to work.
I spent the last few weeks playing video games, watching YouTube, Netflix, and just wasting a lot of my time. I bought a lot of books, finished one, managed to read half of another but quit because I didn't like it, and now I'm busy with Moby Dick by Herman Melville.
Although I enjoyed all this idleness, it also made me quite miserable. I like making progress. I understand the limitations of my body, the stress that accumulates and the need for rest, but I dislike all of it. If I could somehow get an infinite amount of inspiration and motivation, I would be happy to work all the time.
Sadly, it cannot be done. I had to stop working and spend some of my time relaxing, playing a lot of games, reading and watching content. I eventually grew bored of all that, at least as a full time "occupation". I still like everything I just mentioned, but I think that somehow work and progress is placed above everything.
Therefore, I'm getting back into it. I already started writing and posting some articles on Medium. I started to draw a little bit, hoping to get better at it. I bought a course, and I'm getting back into 3D modelling. I'll try to make a habit out of reading 50 pages a day from whatever book I choose, plus articles online. And I'll get back to writing on Hive. I'll also begin posting in the Self Improvement Community, something I've been wanting to do for quite a while after receiving the suggestion from @erikah.
However, I'll take it easy. This vacation has been... tiring, in a weird way. I feel as if I lost quite a bit of motivation to do anything. The same applies to all the inspiration I had. I have to force myself to do even small things right now, simply because I'm not excited about anything. But that will change as I work, little by little.
I might get back to daily posting. I might make a habit out of writing 3 articles a day - one for my Hive profile, one for Hive communities and one for Medium. I might not do any of that. I might choose a different direction. It remains to be seen. What I do know, is that I cannot be idle any more. I cannot just sit around, without doing anything. Too much of that, and I'll go insane. So, I'm starting to work again.