Truly spoken from the heart:), and you talk about balance( i think that you are so right and that you have to love yourself now as well as when you succeed in making the new you), i believe a lot of people want success now be it money, weightloss, popularity, promotion at work etc etc being slow and methodical and enjoying the ride will bring happiness i think, and however small the progression even a dripping tap will eventually fill a bath, hugs to you for your determination and focused outlook and i have no doubt you will succeed in your goals , Well done you :)