The story of a weed smoker ( the money)

Hello steemian's,

Let me introduce myself a little before i tell my story.
I am past 30, feeling maby 26 and live in holland in a normal size city. Good education and used to have oke paying jobs.

Here you see a little picture of me.

All i am about to tell you, are experiences of me, of my life and friend's who i had. The purpose of this story is to first of all get the story out and second hoop too save some souls with it too.

It all started at a pretty young age around 14 to 15 years old, in the neighborhood there where some older kids that smoked ciggy's. Offcourse i knew a few of them and the sometimes offered me a cigarette, and before i knew it i was smoking them, on school and with friends out, stuff like that.

In holland weed is very common and also legal to get, if age is above 18. There was a huge black market of it too, no parent knew that and we where starting to smoke that too when on school and when we went out. age was around 16 when this all became a habit. I started smoking weed like every week then. it became more and more, i smoked everyday weed when i was about 17 or 18, cant really remember. at that time the cost where like maby 3 dollar for a 0,5 grams joint. and i smoked at least 3 a day.

Not that it all really mattered too me because i had a good job, was going to school, getting good numbers and had friends. I even went on vacation twice a year.

But after like smoking weed for 10 years + everyday, except for business trips and vacation , i sometimes wonder how it would be if i had saved the money. Probably a very very nice car.
The point is after so long, i still have the urge to smoke and its getting worse because i have no job atm. i dont even get that stoned as i did of it. Maby after smoking like 60 dollars in one go i get the feeling, like i did the first few times.

The addiction will really hit you at the times like this, all i think now is how to get my smoke without getting debts and stuff.
So you start eating less expensive or just bread the last week of the month just to get your smoke and belief me after so long 1 joint is not enough anymore.

So people please look out of this stuff, it will drain your wallet empty, alot of my friend became very paranoid and had to stop smoking it. i do also sometimes notice the paranoid but it seems that my mind is way more powerful than the drugs. (i did a lot to try them out, also the more unknown stuff like ayahausca)

There are off course also a lot of positive points of smoking weed but that is going to be a other post.

Best wises and good luck,
Slossie Gogem

PS let me know if i should make a post of the positive things of weed, or maby other experiences people wanna know about?!