I hope you find success TJ. I remember you setting some awesome treads, and it sucks that your vision has gotten fucked over. I think that you'll pull through.
In a video you made a while ago about someone, they were comparing your channel to their's, and they pointed out you weren't getting as many views as them. You counter punched by saying that you have always been on the platform, and that you will always be creating stuff (or something like that.) You can do it.