Life made seem hard and be hard for awhile but in times like this you have to look at the small positive things in your life right now. My mother had cancer and for a very long time my and my whole family was depressed about it although we noticed she somehow always kept a smile on her face. It was truly beautiful and she kept strong for us and made us see the positive things. After over a year we got the amazing news that she no longer has cancer. Life is like a roller coaster lots of twists and turns, but I believe that you at one point will receive a blessing in your life and see some happiness.