I felt guilty because as an online seller, I have a lot of experiences with broken promises saying they will pay "next week" and that next week turned to months. And then I got scared. I got scared to trust them again. I got scared to be just a fool in the end. I got scared to suffer that is why I got scared to let them get the item first without paying. And, not just that. I tend to start generalizing people. That is because, I am scared. But, you made me realize to still do good anyway. Because yes, there are some who keep their words. You made me think, "would I generalize everyone even if there are still people who still keep their words?"
I probably just have to be more careful.