For weeks now, I have been meaning to write for @surpassinggoogle's Untalented Who Am I Contest. Obviously, I have not written anything yet. Then came the Untalented v 2.0. It's been over a week and of course, I have not yet shared an entry. This post has been sitting in my drafts for a couple of days already, even hanging inside my head for almost a month now. So if this post made it to your feed, congratulate me please. It meant that in between lazy and busy times, I found the words and the time to share. :D

Me before and after the blockchain:

I joined steemit 4 months ago, just when we have been introduced to the idea of crypto currencies. Thanks to hubby @kennroy and his friends @hiroyamagishi, @elizahfhaye, @crisgojar among others. Honestly, I do not really understand the crypto part. Not even up to now. So yeah, we did not invest on any crypto. Whatever we are holding, we earned - mostly here on steemit of course. So you'll know it's not a lot. LOL.

During the time when I was waiting for my account to get activated, what I was really excited about was the idea that I will be able to write.

I loved to write, much as I loved to read. However, as years passed by, I became busy with a lot of things - parenting most especially. When before, I can stay up most of the night reading, now, if you want me to fall asleep, give me a book to read! Before, my ideas for most of my writings came and flowed freely. Now, words easily elude me.

I do not remember having proper sleep over the past 4 years, from when I got pregnant with my second baby. We have not yet picked up from where we have left then came the 3rd baby. They were born 17 months apart.

So maybe the unrest and stress were causing my brain to shrink and act crazily? Maybe. Maybe not.

At work, I was organized. I was an Office and Sales Coordinator, in charge of over 100 financial sales consultants in the Abu Dhabi branch of our company while keeping up with my Sales Director who was working like a machine. I made their lives easier, kept them up to speed and even stepped up in places when they could not - client servicing- wise. A colleague even referred to me as a "CPU". Oh, so that meant I was a machine too! Crap.

My mind was full of clutter. Work. Home. Friends. Family. Work. Work. Home. Home...

Oh, I know you know what I mean!

I needed a switch.

A life switch, which I could turn on and off in between responsibilities.

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D@arn I most of the time wished that I could be like Elena Gilbert or the Salvatore brothers in the series Vampire Diaries, who can just flip their humanity switch off and that's it. No more emotions.

Coz it was too much.

At work, they wondered where I got my patience from. I managed everything with cool and ease. You would never see me break down. In fact, nobody could put me down just like that.

Well, maybe because 100 people of different nationalities, gender and personalities just got easier to handle when I had to deal with 3 small children.

You say adulting is hard?! Well, parenting is HARDER!

So I thought, if I were able to handle unpredictability of my children, I should be able to manage these somehow knowing adults.

So what happened after steemit?!

HUH?!

I guess, what I am trying to say is that, I AM STILL A MESS.

Although, I am trying to make it a little better. I try not to worry too much anymore. After all, I have just opened up a new chapter in my life. And how great is it to live your life with a partner in life whom you know has got your back too. @kennyroy has been very patient and supportive. All the time. I guess that makes my life easier to handle too.

Steemit has also influenced my life in a lot of things. I suddenly see myself looking at things and think how I can possibly share them on the blockchain in an entertaining and artistic manner. My kids ask their repertoire of questions and I try to answer them then share it here on steemit for everyone else to relate.

As in the picture above, there is really not a big difference. But the main thing that changed is my outlook in life. I try not to dwell on the negative. I try to stay positive and stress not on things that are out of my control. Live free. Think free. After all, that's how life is. IMPERFECT. This is me. UN-TALENTED. However, the way we look at it makes a difference. Look at the brighter side. You'll feel brighter and lighter too. Find sense in our "un-talentedness". Besides, there's a reason for everything. They are just sometimes beyond our comprehension.

Congratulations and thank you!

Thank you for staying with me while I pour out a boring blabbering of my none sense.

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