Ahhh, my brother. I don't see these as 'negative' thoughts but me merely being honest with the condition of my vessel. I will confront this head on and do all I can to work through it. But I refuse to lie about the challenges I face as that would be the devil's work. But acknowledging my challenges I can bring them into my consciousness and address it directly. But if I ignore it or dismiss the issues, then I'm just lying to myself and others. That would be a catastrophe. I refuse to let him do his work within my sphere. I do appreciate your concern and confronting me about what I shared. It takes a true friend to do that and I appreciate it very much. The way I see it, if I lie to myself, that is Satan's work. I refuse to do that. So I bring everything to the table to be discussed. No secrets. No shadows. No place for him to hide.