Your story and mine sound a lot alike. I've made the same realizations as well. That is why my wife and I took the path we did. We helped ourselves and share our story. We stopped trying to help others. Instead we wait for people to come to us. I blog for my own healing. If others get something out of it then that is a bonus. Wonderful to hear your take on it all. It feeds my spirit to connect with others on similar paths. Thank you for sharing!!!