Having dealt with those same issues in my family I empathize very deeply. But I want to address your post: You are walking what the Buddhists call the Middle Path. On this path one may be enlightened (or not) but is definitely committed to a Higher Purpose while at the same time dealing with the issues of life. It is a challenging Path to walk in that our old reflexive and instinctive drives pull us into the muck of lower frequencies. And yet engage we must. It is not enough to sit under a tree in deep meditation and chant "oommmm......". At times we must carry the sword, so to speak. Just as Christ cast out the money changers from the temple, so must we too stand against evil in all its forms, while at the same time anchoring our souls in Love. Blessings.