dear @wakeupkitty! thank you so much for your personal comment. other people are just a help, we have to look for a kid inside ourselves. Well, this is what i think. And if you have this feeling of missing it, the kid is there, waiting to be rediscovered! :) I was always too mature and serious for my age! too many problems at home. But once you decide to let go, it will gradually leave. and leave you lighter! but it was a process for me, no miraculous. Good luck to you! sending love! :)