Please Read Post Trimurti - Chapter 1, Part 2
While Hiru was not contemplating the plight of mankind’s predicament, he was conducting mental health evaluations or interviews of prospective test subjects for Department Two. It had become monotonous and depressing for Hiru to listen to the pain and sorrow during these interviews of the individuals who had lost everything and in a way had become too heavy for his shoulders to bear. He himself had often thought of donating his own mind to science, but in the end, he knew the best way to help others and to reach his own immortality was through his work on the Adam and Eve Project.
His last interview seemed to really hit home for him. A young man should be in his prime by all means finding the love of his life, planning his future by making plans of marriage and family even if his children were artificial intelligent beings. At least he would gain immortality through the passing along of his knowledge and name. But instead this young gentleman was about to give himself to science without any knowing if it was to be successful or not.
This young retired soldier had already given his independence and even his chance at love to be controlled by the government that once was but is no longer standing due to the inconsistencies and fallacies of its promise of freedom. He was a product of the need to survive back then and nothing more and nothing less.
Many who have crossed paths with him, whether family or stranger, have often asked why he was discharged from the military? While even though his physical body looked healthy enough and his mind maybe even sharp, he moved as a sad person moved or that of a person with a heavy load to carry, as if breathing itself was a burden. No one knew the atrocities thrown upon him nor the horrors he has seen or done at war.
They say that the eyes are the window into a person’s soul. If you looked into the eyes of this young gentleman, you would see nothing but darkness and deadness plaguing his tortured soul. The eyes of a new soldier is always full of life and hope in dreams of becoming great and indispensable. It goes back to the human need of immortality and to be remembered. These young soldiers wish to leave their mark on this world. They want to leave their prints so that their name will be remembered forever and that they will be revered as a god.
If you look into the eyes of a second year soldier, you can already see the light leaving the eyes. And by the third year, there is no light at all, just an emptiness of pain, sorrow, and loneliness. These soldiers would give everything to their country and then they would be tossed away like last night's garbage in the morning destined to wander, lost and broken, continuing the search for immortality once more.
And even though many soldier volunteers say they don’t care anymore, in fact, they care more than anyone and anything. They want to be the one to break the dimensions and transfer their mind into a computer. So they donate themselves to science in hopes that they will find happiness if only for a fleeting moment because isn't that what we all want, is to feel wanted, needed, revered, and above all loved.
Frankly, the Adam and Eve Project could care less. The only concern was the preservation of mankind and the interview was more of a formality than anything. Realistically, the project would take anyone with any past to ensure there are enough test specimens to further the progress of the project.
Hiru always felt a certain cognitive dissonance with his job. He never wanted to see a human being feel so disposable, so unwanted, unloved, and lonely. But in order to do that, he had to become cold and removed from the subjects and their past. And he would tell himself that he was giving these test subjects what they wanted, that fleeting moment of happiness and hope and that the work he was doing was good and for the benefit of all mankind. Because maybe this time, this young retired soldier would be the one to survive the tests. He would justify it over and over through many sleepless nights. He had to save mankind. And in a way, he had to save it for his own selfish needs. He had to find his own sense of immortality.