Sorry to learn about your loss; I can imagine how u feel. I lost my dad in 2015, it was the worst thing that has hapened to me. It did feel like a dream back then, and I just couldn't bring myself to believing it had happened. Even today, I still wish I could change such tragic event but sigh, that's life.

Be strong my dear, you will feel better with time. Your parents never really die, they live on through you 🙂.