I read a lot of stories of very young girls who suffer. But believe me that time is the best doctor, you just need to forgive and let go of everything in order to be truly happy in the future.
Before the 11th grade I did not meet with anyone seriously. Yes, there were fleeting encounters, sympathy and even some kind of love. In the 11th grade I started to meet a guy of Caucasian nationality, whom I consider to be my first love. My parents were against our attitude, because he was older than me for 4 years, and even Georgians. His name was Avtandil. And I want to devote a couple of lines of my memories to him. Between us was a child's love, that is, his attitude toward me was like a small child. Wore all the time on his hands. Then I was a virgin and he did not touch me, not even hinting at the bed. Always looked with admiration.
We had everything fine for the time being. Maybe I imagined everything myself then, but it seemed to me that he always deceives me (he was often busy at work, sometimes he could not go on a date, etc.) Of course, I understood him on the one hand, as a man , I want women's caresses, but at the same time it infuriated me.
I remember Valentine's Day, I went to a cafe with friends, and he said that they broke up with their guys and it will not be convenient if we sit together and coo. But in fact, I wanted to spend this day with him and more with no one, but my friends could not deny their request. So on February 14, it was so bad for me that everything around me was with my beloved, and he was not with me at my request. On this day, I met a guy (let's call him Mr. X). And on March 8 we agreed to be together, but he had to leave urgently. I went back with my friends in a cafe where I met Mr. X. We had fun! Then Avtandil's best friend called me and asked: "Where are you sitting?" The car asked me to give the gift. " I told him the address. An hour passed, the second, and there were no other cars. Dancing began and I adored me slow. We went to dance with Mr. X (he was cute to me) and started kissing during the dance, and at that time Avtandil came with his best friend and watched all this. After this incident, we met with him for another 3 months, although he forgave me everything, but I could not look into his eyes and decided that it would be better for us to disperse. Then came the time of the exams, the hot summer and somehow the pain inside let go. By the way, with Autoshka we met for 9 months - for me it was oh-ho-go what term.
I entered the university and then began my second love story, which caused most pain to both of us. It was the end of November. My cousin acquainted me with it. His name was Nariman. He was the same student, but we studied at different universities. As they say, went-went-and swirled. I did not imagine us without each other. All our surroundings admired us and envied white envy. To write too long about us with him. Maybe somehow I will continue this topic. In the end, we broke up. He married the same day as I left him. Then he regretted for a long time about his action, but what was done, that he could not be corrected. Now I'm 25 years old (2012) and in the autumn I have a wedding. I am very happy with my young man. He is 1000 times better than anyone I've met, but I never told him about it and will not tell. Let him think that he is one of all 🙂
If you are going to be married then you should be honest with your man. then you will be able to go forward and let go of the past. Yes and to forgive is to let go but in your heart you will not be free. If he loves you he will understand and you will know and you shall be free.
Congrats on the upcoming wedding!
Letting go truly is what we must do in order to recieve what we truly desire. Because when we hold onto past memories we're not living in the present moment and we're not attracting what we want to experience now in this moment, but we're attracting what we wanted to experience back then.
It's very interesting how it works if you look at it. Once you let go fully, you actually experience exactly what you wanted to experience in the first place. :)