The Reason Why I Can Never Fall In Love Again.

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I would like to share a story with you. The story of the sweet love turn sour. The reason why I dont think I can fall in love again. It was year 2010

It all started when I was in the university. My mama sent me to school to read and face my studies. Along the line I fell in love.

In school I was a member of the man o war. So part of our duties was to guard events. We went for an event and I met this beautiful young lady.

I decided to walk up to her to initiate a conversation. She was showing attitude as said she said she was not interested in the conversation but later succumbed after persuasion. She told me her name was Seun.

There we exchanged numbers and I asked her where she lived, she told me and said I was free to come check out of any time I feel like. We slept in the hall that was used for the event.

The next day we we went back to the school together and I paid for her transport. she appreciated me and we departed. I already collected her number so sometimes I call her up and we just have normal conversation.

One day I decided to go see her in her hostel, i called her and she asked me to come over. So I went there. she had a lovely room. She offered me drinks but i refuted. She showed me photos of her and her family members plus friends.

It was getting late for me so i had to go back to the hostel. She saw me off and we departed that evening .i called her the next day and i requested we meet in a restaurant in the school and she agreed.

It was there I told her my mind unfortunately for me she said she was not ready for relationship then. It was painful and i said nothing after

After eating we left and i took her home.called her when i got home and told me that she was was having feelings for me too. It felt like the happiest day of my life.

I started a relationship and everything went on well. We had our ups and downs but we settled.
I remember our first kiss. It was not the best because she said it was her first time so she felt strange.

I loved this girl and i cherish her a lot. There was a time we fought so she went to drink. I was not around then I was already in my hostel when I saw a call from her friend telling me to come and see her that my girlfriend is dead drunk and she was already vomiting close to 2 o'clock in the morning.

It was so risky to go out but because of the love I had for I went to see her. She was so messed up but I cleaned her up.

I don't mean to bore you with my story but i just had to share it. I was so in love with her. So i dont think of the things i do for her before i do. It mostly gets me into trouble as i lost most of my friends because of her.

Well that is not the reason for my story so I'll just head straight to the reason why i doubt if i can ever love again. Seun had always been telling me of a friend asking her out. So one day the guy came to visit her and planned to stay for the night.

I was not ok with it and I told her plainly that i wouldnt surport it. He can pass the night if only she would come sleep in my place and the guy will sleep in her room.

She refused and they slept together. I was unable to sleep in the night as i was just thinking of bad things. I was imagining they were making out.

Immedeately when it was 5 oclock in the morning, i left for her hostel. To my greastest suprise when i got to her door, it was locked from inside. I did not knock the door, i just peeped through the window and i saw my gf and the guy making out.

It was like the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I left there in pain and called her the next day and i told her to come visit. She did and i told her what i saw.

To my greatest surprise she did not even deny. And said she did it because i did not trust her. I was angry and i told her to go. She left without saying she was sorry.

Since then she did not call me. I went to see her one day and she told me she was no longer interested in the relationship. I was shocked by her heartlessnes.

I cried a lot because i had built my life around her. I couldnt take the pain so i started to drink. I became a drunkard and it affected my academics.

She was the first girl i loved and i guess she is going to be the last because love is wicked.

The realtionship ended after 3 years. it ended may 2013. I learnt my lessons and i promised myself not to go into any relaymtionship. Because seun destroyed my life. Since then i have been single.
Single till now

I hope i am justified by my reason.