How does a clinically depressed person feel?

I am writing this because it had been a part of my life, the clinical depression. Depression is a condition where you feel a sense of deep sadness, deep enough for you to harm yourself, like life has no meaning anymore. When I was around three to seven years of age I was having these feeling of depression. I thought it was just normal and I only realized that I did suffer from it years later when I learned about the symptoms.

I blame the condition from my medicine those years because I was taking a medicine for my mild epilepsy. The side-effect was indeed a debilitating disease that my mother and other people noticed from me. They said that I was always quiet and kept to myself. But for me I was always like I want to cry or die, for that tender age of mine in the early 80's.

It was tough, I was watching cartoons or playing but my emotions deep inside lingering is different. It really is hard to describe it until you did suffer from it yourself, then you would know. It is weird, my main trip during that time is thinking about what if I was born in a different family, then I wouldn't have met my present mother. Funny if you are reading it but, it is the main subject of my depression.

Depression is a deep despair of unimaginable sadness, that is why people commit suicide if they truly are suffering from it but it needs to be treated with medicines at least and a help and support by professionals and family members of the patient.

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