Sigh this is beautiful, totaly mirin your journey. I need to see more of the world with people that I love. Sadly I don't have any yet.
I don't want to die knowing that I could have explored more. Just gotta keep the hustle on.
Memento Mori - Time is precious.
Get out that and go for it. Take a walk in the park, hike, explore. You don't have to break the bank to do it. If no one else loves you then I do and God surely does my friend. You are not alone and hustle on.