In general I'm fairly satisfied with steemit as it is and I don't mind that whales and dolphins don't give me all their attention all the time since most of the time I don't deserve it :)
Sometimes though, just once in a while, it can be a little frustrating to put hour after hour into a good long well edited and written post with absolutely no recognition, just to then see high rep people make short or poorly composed posts or uploading bad pictures and instantly get high upvotes. I often get a feeling that it's people and not content that is upvoted on steemit, and while I absolutely understand that everyone of course wants to support their friends, it's a little discouraging at times.
With that said though it's obviously important that you do steemit because you like it yourself, and while I've yet to earn my share of attention, I'm thoroughly enjoying what I'm doing and as such I hope the rest comes along the way.
Thanks for a good read before bedtime, I enjoyed your dualistic view into a world of someone who is both and neither :)
I think your comments sum up a lot of my feelings about Steemit pretty well. I have days where I love Steemit and can't wait to interact, post, and be part of the community. Then, I have the days where I feel the frustration that can come with a good but ignored post. Some days it's definitely a love/hate relationship, but I continue to press on because the positives still outweigh the negatives.
I think that's how a lot of us feel. There are lots of emotional traps (BS) that is easy to get upset about but it doesn't really do any good to let that take up your attention. Focusing on what you can do is always going to go further.
You seem to be doing fantastically, I hope you are satisfied, and keep it up. ;-) There are a lot of users who struggle for a long time to get noticed by anyone with any weight, and some of them have very great content. I can think of some that have posted every day for 8 months and still make less than $1 on most of their posts despite their good contact and engagement with other users simply because those users are all minnows. I'd like to make it easier for those people.
Hehe yeah well.. if it wasn't for my girlfriend @iwanderela and her faithful upvote and using votebots to buff up posts for attention and to earn steem power, I really don't think most of my posts would make it above $0.5 in upvotes.. I don't mind the lack of upvotes as I can make up for that with the bots to slowly grow, I just wish for more comments to interact with - people that actually read what I produce :)
I believe I create quality content most of the time and that I have something to offer when I write and I wish I could get it out there for more to actually notice, so in that regard I don't feel like I'm doing that fantastic.. I'm merely playing the steemit bid bot game for now.
But I'm keeping it up and hopefully one day I'll have a breakthrough or be big enough myself to get into the inner circle :)