I have been feeling really down for the last couple of days. Not feeling like myself at all. The hardest part of this is that there is so many things right now that are making me feel this way and some of the things are stuff that I can't do anything about myself. So I find it very hard to find the strength to change the things I know I can do something about because it feels like it won't be any better after that... It's like I don't have any control of what's happening in my own life although that sounds crazy when I say it out loud.
Yep. This is exactly how depressing I am right now.
But at the same time I feel like there is no shame in having these bad days, or even weeks. I know that I feel much better when I get to talk about my problems and my feelings, but at the same time I HATE it. So today I thought about trying something new; I'm going to write about how shitty I feel today on Steemit and then make a list about things that I have to look forward to.
Because who aren't in a good mood when they have something nice to look forward to? That's why I always plan fun things to do on the weekend if I'm really tired and bored at work on a Monday or something.
Here's my "Looking-forward-to-list":
1. My cousin's son's birthday party
On Saturday I'm going to a birthday party. My cousin's son is turning 4. I love birthday parties, because you get to catch up with friends and relatives that you don't see otherwise!
2. Baltic Jazz
Next weekend (7-9.7) it is time for the yearly jazz festival in Taalintehdas. The small village that is usually so quiet and peaceful becomes full of life and music. It's always nice to visit our summer place there, but this is the one weekend you shouldn't miss! I hope to get my boyfriend with me there and hang out with some friends and have a few drinks.
3. A trip to my "real" summer cottage
My dad has this beautiful summer place on a small island in Korppoo and I think we will go there in the middle of July with my younger brothers. This place is for me a "real" summer cottage without any electricity and with a outdoor toilet. Of course there is a sauna and you have to go there by boat.
4. My cousin's wedding
On the last Saturday of July my second oldest cousin is getting married! I absolutely LOVE weddings! I am actually already engaged myself, but we have decided to get married first in a few years or so.
5. My new job
In the beginning of August I will start at my new job as a school assistant. The best part about this for me is that life is getting back to normal. It's great with summer vacation, but I miss our apartment and having routines in the daily life. Of course it will be nice to make some money and maybe travel somewhere during Christmas or next summer!
Yesterday when I was feeling a bit better and we went to the hospital to see my boyfriend's newly born nephew.
No idea what's going on with my arms! They look creepy... Besides that, I like the photo very much!
I can tell you that I already feel better after making this list. So if you also are having a bad day, make sure you do something to make it a little less bad (maybe a similar list?) or just take a day off from all your duties and relax. There is no hurry in this world, but you have to remember to think about the positive things and not just focus on the bad ones.
Hope you all are having a nice Wednesday!
You make a very good point. I just recently came back from a long vacation which was amazing, but I got so depressed when I came home. Thank you for this post!
depressed? - eat big chocolate bar
Count your blessings while others are adding up their troubles.
Someone told me that always look at people who are bigger in life than you, for inspiration and look at the ones who are in poor condition than you, as then you will value yourself.
Be happy and Keep Steeming. I am happy to see your post on this community, it makes this place versatile
I guess I have some trouble valuing myself highly enough sometimes. You know, when you are at your lowest and feel worthless.. Thankfully I have much more of the good days than bad!
Thanks for your comment!
I think we're all subject to this feeling and it's kinda reassuring that you know that we all feel like this sometimes. I'm sure it's going to pass soon :)
You're right. And I'm feeling much better now thanks to all your kind comments! (And thanks to a delicious pizza... :)
Ahahahahayou should try chocolate :p
You have a lot to look forward to.
When i feel depressed i use to go to the swimming pool, to swim and feel something really physical.. It can't resolv all my problems, but on the moment i really feel better :)
hope you will feel better soon !
Swimming is nice. Maybe I'll have to go swimming later today... :) I actually live near a lake and it's almost 20 degrees Celsius in the water now!
Wish your life back to normal. This days I am feeling very depressed to and very upset. Still I mage due to community and support of people in community.
Now I am reading posts of other and taking motivations from other members of the community.
I can suggest you to do so. I know when mood is not right and you feel depressed how it feels like.
Some time feel not to keep the life again thought fighting is life.
So keep smiling and continue your beautiful posts with Steemit
Thanks for your comment! I hope you also feel better soon! :)
Same to you. wish you will get back to your normal form again,
Glad your list seemed to work somewhat.
I'll make one to cheer myself up. What do I have to look forward to?
The new series of Rick and Morty
The cold, welcome embrace of the grave
(Only half taking the piss - genuinely hope you feel better though!)
Oh, I'm also looking forward to the new season of Rick and Morty! And Game of thrones of course. Right now I have to watch Friends since everyone thinks I'm crazy for not having watched it yet... :)
I grew up watching Friends and it's pretty bizarre that someone hasn't seen it! That said, I tried to watch it recently and it's just like one advert after another. There was one that was basically a Pottery Barn advert, then another for Ferrari I think, then for Tommy Hilfiger. I think audiences have since learned to spot obvious product placement - that must have been a golden age.
Haha! Thanks, now all I will see is product placement...! It's still a nice show though. You don't have to think so much while watching it, very relaxing.. :)
Haha - yeah, sorry. Didn't mean to ruin it for you! Those kind of mindless entertaining shows can be great. My current go to for that is Brooklyn Nine Nine.
Maybe I'll watch that one next! Have already watched Two and a half men, Family Guy, American Dad, How I met your mother and most mindless entertaining shows as you called them..!
your doing well to keep a balance -- i have suffered a lot of depression and am currently well - i followed you and wish you a great week -David
Thanks for your comment! Depression can be a bitch... I've also had it back and forth since I was only 12. Followed you back!
i find doing good things and being busy can help -but if i am really down it is like nothing makes any difference -- my wife helps a lot by loving me well
I'm glad you have a loving wife! Everyone deserves someone that loves them.
it makes all the difference to me- i had to wait until i was 47 to meet the right girl
watch game of thrones
I actually think I will do that. Maybe I'll watch the whole last season so I'm ready for the new one!
Im depressed because I have no real friends, so nearly all of my time is spent on the computer.... what a waste of time
I don't have a lot of friends either.. But I enjoy being by myself most of the time :) And you can also have friends on the internet, it's nothing wrong with that!
Well, you sure know how to make someones day ! :-)
When I feel sad, I usually go for a walk or I write. Either way, it's great for the soul and it clears my head.
If I'm out and about and not feeling myself, I still can crack jokes and make people laugh. If I can make others happy with my wit and humor on a bad day, then I'm happy.
Thanks for sharing! Upvoted!
Thanks for your comment! I also feel like it's been a good day if I've made someone else happy, but it's not always so easy if you are feeling low.
Thanks to all your nice comments on this post I feel much better now! I'm even on my way out to meet up with a couple of friends.
I also felt a bit depressed when i experienced some challenges in my business but bracing up to make tomorrow better than today.
The keypoint is to Stay Focused on your Goal, that will keep motivating you to attain your goals irrespective of the obstacles.
Hope your business will go well!
One of my problems are that I don't really have a goal yet.. But maybe I'll find that out soon :)
Yes, by God's grace as i am back to solving it.
I just posted an article which talks about goals.
you can follow me and take a look at it now.
Just Keep Yourself Busy.
We all have our downs every now and then, but just as you said, focus on the positive things to come and don't look back.
Glad you got the job! Maybe we will meet at Baltic jazz, don't really know if we are coming yet but maybe? :D
It would be so fun if you guys also came! Let me know when you have decided! :)
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