Help me , please !!!!!!

Thank all of you watching me !!
So, i will tell you about my story . Yeah, all of us come here to make friend , find new stories, see beautiful pictures about life and make money . Right ?
Yeah, i also like you. I joined steemit about 3 months ago.
And i am a student , my parents do not give any money . Every month , my mom just gave me 5$ for my bus ticket. I did not have any money to pay for anything. I could not buy what i like or sometimes my friend told me go out , go shopping. But i always went back home . I did not join any trip with them. So , the student time were very bored. Do you understand what i feel ???
Yeah , i though why ? Why i have to do that ? Why don't play with them ? Maybe it makes me better . But i need money... My parent have to feed my sibling so hard, how could i told my mom give me money to go out !
I could not.....
I just think why don't i go to work ? Have lots of work for students for go to school and go to work. Have lots of part time job, full time job.
And i asked my friend. " do you have any job for me ? I want to find a job. I want to use my english to do my job "
My friend said. " come with me , i have a interesting job. You just must write and post "
I thought " oh, it is so good " so i joined steemit that time. After that , i must go to five-stars hotel to be trainee to finish my study. I tried a lot to post , but today i know i lose my money . I do not know why does my money lose ?
I do not know why does my money lose in an account @carlottafrisione
Do you know this trouble ??? Can you explain for me ???? Please, help me.
Make money so hard , but lose money no reason so harder . I can not accept. To made these money, i had to do many thing, many time.......
Please !!!
Thank all of you