After reading your post you should not feel like a "f*&^ up" or a failure! You are the main reason for giving me hope on this website and your excitement for steemit is contagious! I have just deposited another $1500 in cash today into bitcoin and am now converting it to steem and steem power. I have not been this excited about the potential of a new platform since Udemy!
Now, I also wanted to say that I love the #teamjerry idea and also am a big fan of the meetups/mastermind idea? Maybe we could have a steemit mastermind as well?
Also, as someone who love learning we always appreciate your new insights, examples, and knowledge when it comes to steem, other cryptocurrency, and your life in general. Please keep posting and sharing your gifts and talents because you are making a difference and GOOD people are listening and taking action! Thanks again for all you do Jerry and keep up the good work!