Writers get tired and need a break. People who live in their own little world and we all do, end up seeing more of the world than they thought they would ever see and sometimes, they don't like it. As for conspiracy, there always was, always is, and always will be. That's just the way life is on planet Earth. Freedom and liberty are not free, they cost an awful, tremendously high price. Take a break. Put away the computer screen. See the planet and people. I bet you will know why you are here after a while.