Praying for you brother. I know it is tough, and moving on is never easy. Steemit can be your avenue brother to express how you feel. We are here to listen. We'll never judge you just as Jehovah never judged Jacob for his long period of grief. The pain and depression, have someone to talk to about it. You can PM us Steemians, and even our spiritual brothers and sisters, including me. I can PM you as well, please bear with my persistence. Hehe. I am praying to Jehovah to look after you always and comfort you.
On the other hand, hoping I can attend meetups someday.
Thank you for everything. I know of your love, it is real and fully felt, this i know. I like the you leave the judging to Jehovah too. I for one am never condemning cos in reality who am i. When you do this life of suffering to an extent, this depths are easier to understand. For the meetups, you will attend some for sure. I am sure there will be many of them and soon in your area too.