It's my pleasure. AND I have to challenge you. You say "I don't mind creating if it is something that will last." You are putting expectations on this and you don't even know WHAT this IS. My recommendation is a different perspective & one that will allow you to get out of your own way. The only way I know is because I was you before. Judging and never letting it just be. Maybe that's why you are ungatefulchump? Time to give up on who you are in order to become who you are suppose to be. Good luck to you, ungrateful.