WHO AM I?????

I am Abimbola Agboola, the last child of five children, I could call us middle class. Though we didn't have it all but our parents tried in giving us the best of it all.

As the last child I had set standards I either had to meet or surpass which I did quite some justice. I have expectations which I definitely must meet which dragged me into my state before I read @surpassinggoogle's post.

MY PERSON
I am a very calm and easy going person always wanting to meet the needs of others. Their needs just have to come first. In fact, I could be called melancholy with some little traits of sanguine. This drags me into some moody moments sometimes. I am presently working on this. Despite my brilliant performance I still always felt I wasn't enough, like I wasn't a genius like my elder ones who made such impact in their field.

I could be very pessimistic about life which causes me slow decisions which has been to my disadvantage often times. I often times wanted the consent and approval of others before going ahead with a new idea. In fact, it was so bad I clamoured approval for every new cloth I wore either from friends or families. I never really felt beautiful, I often lived off the praises and affirmation of others to feel beautiful. In fact, these two pictures were the ones that boosted my confidence level the more each time it's complimented.

Just by reading @surpassinggoogle's post, I learnt optimism and being a go-getter regardless of others criticisms. My confidence level was tripled. I began to see beauty in Abimbola. Oh I really can't explain the depths of the areas of my life it touched.

MY GOALS
I have always wanted to study accounting but the Nigerian universities often helps to discover your career path sometimes. I lost studying accounting as I got 3points lesser than the cut off mark. So I did some research and discovered my love for people, so, I chose to study Sociology. However, I found it very interesting and stayed. After my first year. I proceeded to go for masters. I finished masters and I felt the jobs were going to come laying at my feet but they were not coming forth. I have always wanted to either be a research officer or a Human Resource officer but none was green enough a pasture for me as no job was coming.

MY EXPECTATIONS
My parents both had a doctoral degree, they had high expectations of me. They kept asking of I was just lazing around and not applying as there were no results to show forth. As my father would say, "Excuses are only excuses if they don't achieve results". In fact, because of the Nigerian expectation for marriage, since no job was forth coming the next topic my parents picked up was marriage - "at least you can get married" - they made it sound as though not having a job was a disability.
It was at this point I came across @surpassinggoogle's post. I had lost complete hope in myself. No job, no money, no expectation, no boyfriend, I couldn't even afford writing a final certification exam because I had no money, I could be termed broke.

MY DREAMS
Just with @surpassing google's post I rediscovered who I was. I might not have money or job but I have a purpose and this must be achieved. Regardless of approvals and affirmations I have decided to stay true to myself.

I have always had an idea of having a woman initiative which I tagged Rubies Network which would help empower single ladies financially and psychologically even socially. Helping them rediscover themselves and achieving their life purpose. This I pushed away because of my pessimistic nature, I saw it as not good enough but I am so determined to make this work right now. No more push overs! Even if it's nonsense. There is a sense in it because I am a genius.

WHO AM I
I a strong woman with a balance of grit and zeal ready to take over the world!

No stopping me!