Of course, you are right - a heavy personal visitation of past absolute horror (one of which we all are susceptible to, may be a weight that is more than many are willing to bear).
I recognize the werewolf that resides within me. I need to channel the forces to release it when necessary; seeing firsthand the horrors of the past will assist in correctly knowing when to unleash the full fury of a man who stands for something; protecting the infirm, the wounded, the victimized. I don't give two shits over whom I'm protecting, gender be damned. Laying monstrous, bloody WASTE to those who would victimized others - that is my paradigm.
I need to see, first hand, how bad it can get.

As men, we all have the Incredible Hulk within us, unleashed correctly, THAT'S what will save humanity from the next atrocity.
Men: THAT is your mantle: As protectors, as Saviors, as sacrifices to accomplishing a better future.
Do NOT take your testosterone lightly.
It comes with responsibilities, and obligations.