I was up around a few minutes after midnight, just staring at Anita as she slept, I wasn't in love or nothing like that, only just loved how calm she looked as she slept.
We were college students and had a working friends with benefits arrangement, we had shared a deep passionate moment that drained the energy out of her and invariably put her to sleep, I sort of still wanted more but couldn't get it, what a frustrating feeling.
I was up punching the keys in my phone and watching porn, maybe I'd be able to wank myself to sleep.
I went through my regular site but I was uncharacteristically uninterested in any of them, I couldn't get over how peaceful she looked while she slept and then the schizo voices kicked in "think she's peaceful now? imagine how peaceful she'd look dead, smother her with the pillow" it said. For a moment I contemplated doing it but luckily I didn't, instead we snuggled all night and had another session in the early morning. I'm glad we'll never know what would have been if I caved in to my Dark Twisted Fantasy.