I completely agree with you @stackin because when I dived deep into consciousness the same exact thing happened to me and I actually can still kinda relate.
@jeffberwick This will help you - watch this https://www.facebook.com/1100430585/videos/vb.1100430585/10209967751125956/?type=3&theater
This guy completely had me. I love this man, except there's something fucking awful that happens to us when we choose the materialism cookie which he left out, because it's not the glam cookie, it's the body identification cookie. As soon as you see that cookie, everything becomes ugly, because here, we're destined to die. Everyone's body, ages and decays and dies. Everyone knows that but they block it out, and for an excellent reason, because it causes blunt and excruciating psychological pain. That's not dramatic at all it's an understatement of the reality of pain everyone has to go through here as a body or as an identity. We can't think about it, or else we have to live in terror. But the thinking about it is where we find the choice, life of the mind, or death of the body. If material things matter, who do they matter to. IDK, I plan to watch this guy though, he's pretty much on point as far as I can see. I'm sorry to have epiphanies in the comment section. I hadn't thought of it before I saw @awarenessraiser's video, but it's plain to me now.
I'm completely firm on my statements about the extent of pain in our lives. If you'd like to come back to me as a body identifier, saying it is all okay because death is a one time thing and aging doesn't have to be so bad, well think of the vulnerability of it. If anyone is identified with their body even just as their physical self, they're fucked, because guess what you could get raped, stabbed, imprisoned then shanked, tortured, starved, shot, dismembered, disintegrated, and on and on. And it's an even greater liability if you take pride in it. If you identify with the body to closely, you could and often will be, humiliated, rejected, criticized, abandoned, and those are all I can think of. There's no end to the psychological pain of body identification. And that's why people go "crazy" and choose the life cookie. They see the end and they go the other way, nothing more, there's nothing special about it, it's practical and in-exclusive, anyone can do it. I haven't even touched on the effects of viewing other people as their bodies, but it's the same effect in reverse. In case you wanted to know, the moment I differentiated from this person, Jonathan Amaret, was when he said truth is different for each person. Truth is true, and nothing else is true. That's the truth.
I'll tell you all what it's like to be a narcissist someday, in these terms. Just a joke. Just choose the life cookie and none of it will matter. Sorry if I ruined the death cookie for you.
I especially like it's all choice and consequences