Hello, stranger and good acquaintance. I want to talk about mystical sickness the that almost every other person comes with but only keeps himself. This requires a lot of courage to talk about it.
Here is one photo I did not know that existed and I got it some time ago, again... from my girlfriend.
In this photo, I do not just sleep, but I am also in deep depression and "tripping" between the two worlds, I forced myself to fall asleep, instead of letting myself out of the house, doing a bed in mornings, doing hands-offs, walking in park and having my rooms vent, I was in the like this in my room for weeks, in front of the curtains, I did not go outdoors, maybe for a long time, I did not have any feeling of time. I did not want to see anybody and I was thinking of just one thing. Leaving this body. And well i have other photos that now i look back, that damn, this is serious. I have felt depression like so many years actually.
Maybe the reason is either work, money, relations with people - is a neighbor shouting in the morning? Worker steals screws? Dishes are not washed for weeks? Someone is richer than you? Let's face it as something less important than an important event, stop thinking about it and start living your own life. You can solve them if you get lighter, but if you do not solve it, do not think about it, just move forward and leave this pattern.
I try to try, but what am I trying to do? Who do I want and what is the reason for what others would want? Yes, I had a hard time because I lived for others, I read the opinions of each person, I can not tolerate criticism and I try to like everyone. It really was hard, because it's true that we do not like everyone, that's not possible. Now, I just let my person go free, right now and right now, because it's better to have a sense of well-being here right now and also quite seriously tell others who I am really. It's good to release, to change. We often do not let the new person become, because many people who are familiar are beginning to say that "now the person was foolish" or that "it's not you, why you play someone else", etc., they immediately pull a person down. However, it's safe to say that who you used to be to them a year ago does not mean you're right now, let people let you fly freely here and now and in moments to be able to become an even better person. A brief and life-giving star.
My mistake is that I'm not selfish as I think myself - it's an old pattern of envy and fear that was introduced to me skillfully - I took it in myself and it's a waste of my personality, in addition to being well thought out, I add that you need to be yourself THANKS OK. Do not misunderstand, you might well think it, but that does not mean that you would not think well of others. The lesson was that I am selfish when I hide myself for the world and do not try to give out anything. Fears, phobias, anxiety and, as you know, then the most destructive is ENHANCEMENT and COMPARISON.
This is no longer just a self help article, it's a reality. The reality is that I went outside and put the mask in front. I could have left people with a false impression of my tired face, but in fact I tightened so I could, so as not to show what's going on inside of me. I just wanted to go back home.
Fortunately for now, I can say that I have found a balance, at least for myself, that's what matters, because I try to live my life in the best possible way. At the same time, I try to understand how or what can I do to influence other people in the direction that it is possible to deliberately exit depression, but only deliberately, otherwise it will come back.
What did I learn to help me here and now be happy, to feel joy and to be in harmony? It's time to live here in HAT, not a single step back and two strokes, but just now, be in the void of life. Do not swim against the flow and do not try to help the tempo with your hands.
Depression occurs when you live in the past or rush into the future.
I hope that opening up to you can also bring good results because I do not want anyone to feel this, which I know very well on my own skin - if you just do not want to live longer. It's still better if you talk about your worries, but you would do the work and show yourself the desire to get out of it. You are being helped, you will be noticed.
Do not think that the rest of the world is better and you will not need this life. I know that it's hard not to think about it at this time, but I'm telling you at the moment that I lived very hard on my own skin, but I know the sun also shines through curtains.
I just want to say that there are people around us, even strangers to you who can serve you for more than a thousand friends, just please give them the opportunity to learn from you.
PS! If you feel that I'm disturbing somehow with your living with your posts, then please feel free to remove me from the friendship, there is a solution, but I sincerely hope you take me as I am and you know that the expression is difficult for many, but because of this I feel that strength and strengths are now being sought in people and, of course, thanks to all of you who constantly support and encourage me, I will do it in your name, I am grateful.
A one story with a happy ending? Only if you let it be happy. Everything will work for you, everything will be fine.
Hang in there brother. I can relate.