Ok, sounds like you've been busy. It's great you've got your independence.

I am aware of Bernard's passing. I feel like the political aspects of those teachings with him were somehow prophetic of what is to come instead of actually needing to be applied by ourselves (not that I want to apply them).

I have no idea how you guys do it, but you're probably feeling some sort of connection with him on an inter-dimensional level using your wrists or something. I never completely bought that story. It was my intuition that I followed to find Desteni and to work with the group.

I was politically immature at the time, and was also impressionable (still am, mind you). I walked into a place where I felt like there was truth, family and security and I was taught a hard lesson through having been forced to live truths far greater than I; introduced prematurely into my sphere of influence. In a way though, this was also what I wanted. My intent to be there was flavoured by this desire to 'take the shortcut' not considering how much pain it would cause myself.

I can look back and say, I am grateful for the time I spent there and for the teachings I absorbed (whether practical or delusional - in time they have been tried and tested). My life since then has been a journey of proving to myself my own worth and independence apart from the mission of Desteni. Proving to myself and in and of myself, I have value.

Coming in and out of Desteni, I've also been in and out of other groups and I now see more clearly the hold of the group mind within a collective belief system and how this can be used to control a group. I'm much more aware now.

You guys have an important mission, however I do not support a police state with microchips and that was at least part of the reason I left. For sure there were good aspects to Desteni's political dream as well. I'm just not convinced it is the only option.

Part of Desteni's take home message for me was that the truth is harsh and just because it is harsh does not mean we do not face it. We must run headfirst into the flames and in our complete and entire, willing submission to the forces that purify us - we become the best version of ourselves or we die.

As we stare into the barrel of totalitarianism via a virus. All these echos of truth reverberate back up the well of time.

Micro-chips, mark of the beast, yada yada was taught in the religion I was raised in.. My doomsday heritage created a nest by which for Desteni to sit.

I'm glad the group is much more relaxed now.. but I hope your political agenda has shifted. Has it?

So here we are at the threshold of consciousness. The strata in the wind at which the eagle sits (been reading some Castaneda lately, it explains a lot of Bernard's obsession with this symbolic entity). Bernard is still a teacher for me, but not in a way you might consider. I no longer allow shame to control me and I am working hard to stop responding to it with rebellion. Without these motivations to move, I am faced with the entire responsibility of moving myself, without an outside force to prod me along.

We are alone, remember? I am alone.

But also we are together, we are community and we are so strong together. Unimaginably strong. But first our intentions must be aligned. (and please don't break out into a diatribe about intention. It's a word, we use it. It has all the meaning we put into it, it even means 'starting point' if that's how you wish to see it).