I feel your pain. You can fix it and be part of the world, if you care to. I spent 5 years thinking the way you do, so glad I found the truth.

See, society programming is pretty bad. The food supply is also contaminated with a lot of mind altering and addictive chemicals. The combination produces people that I really don't care to be around.

My wife and I removed ourselves from society for nearly a decade, as we worked on ourselves and our relationship. During that time we found a number of things that were highly beneficial to us, yet were lacking in the social data stream.

#1 A lot of the feelings you have are due to misprogramming/imprinting you received when you were young. I highly recommend looking in to the tech at emofree.com and doing a lot of self exploration and reprogramming.

#2 Check out a book/audio by Earl Nightengale called "Lead the Field," because it's great stuff that every kid should be aware of, I found it later in life and it's still been immensely beneficial.

#3 Clean all the chems from your diet. I'm not kidding when I say there are addictive and mind altering drugs in the food supply. Look up "Blood Type Food List" and cut out all the 'Avoids" for your blood type and secreter status. Unless you've cleaned out your body, you really have no idea what you're missing.

#4 Set positive and constructive, worthwhile goals and work toward achieving them. This will bring you great happiness.

#5 When you're doing all of this, chances are good you'll meet someone moving in the same direction you are and life will become even better.

Society sucks for creating self-esteem and well adjusted folks. Take some time to work on yourself, because you deserve it. :)

Be good to yourself!