@drawingly. Keep going. Keep doing what you love and seeking the opportunities that are waiting. The doors will open and you will be able to not only get yourself a proper hardware setup but you will give your children the life and liberty they deserve. As an independent artist I can tell you that it takes every ounce of your effort to stay afloat sometimes but if you stay true to your passions and seek opportunity then you will succeed...that is of course to note that you must first have the proper talent, which you definitely do. Good luck and Godspeed.