Ok, I didn't read every 7943 words, coz I'm not a good reader but I did skim read it all. My thoughts (although you didn't ask for it)
Your job is very important, but you're part of a big system, and not the most efficient one by the sounds of it. Don't kick yourself if shit happens
Not taking leave for three years is unhealthy and shouldn't be allowed. A good HR would have asked IT to disable your access card for a month so you can't enter the hospital or wherever you work
Take a holiday on a remote island by yourself and don't answer the phone at all. Your own mental health is as important as everybody else.
You're 57 words short.
That's ok, I'd likely do the same for long written posts just to get the gist of it.
I started out with ideals in changing the system only to be eaten and understand that generational problems require solutions implemented through the generations. Political problems leak into everything in society even health care.
:< nuuu I need to satisfy my workaholic tendencies when I'm into something. The last 3 years just went by and I was progressing in my career wanting to do something else but preoccupied with the current to bother. My Hive time is one of those areas in life where I want to keep spending time on even when there's an office ultimatum that I'd get fired off if I keep getting distracted with other extracurricular activities like blogging. But I want to live and Hive time is my rebellion time. Oh, HR sucks here.
My room would be enough, just need to turn off the notifications and pretend I'm on quarantine or MIA. It's just the solitude and not the environment I'm after.
I ran out of words so when I started typing "acaiu4bv32b4v0 there " time to call it a wrap and just leave the word count as is.
Thanks for taking the time to drop by, much appreciated :>