Yes, and I share his germaphobia. I went years obsessing over the idea of contracting STDs, and this fear prevented me from years of sex. I suppose that is why I am drawn to Tesla's mental disorders, because I share in some of them. I had OCD pretty bad in my twenties, and also went through a "not touching doorknob" phase as well. And then there is my self-imposed celibacy, of 7 years, which I see perhaps needs to end. But the fear of germs is still with me, the germ I fear the most: sperm.
I have always worn my pathology on my sleeve. It makes me stand out, and could potentially attract someone from far away, one that I'll be too scared to fuck.
With that, I will say that I absolutely cannot wait for my breeding ability to end.
I'd like to return to my pre-pubscent self, one that cannot be impregnated. Then, the real magic could begin as I have found that a significant number of men are horny enough not to care if I'm old. That's one thing that is guaranteed.....young men, who want to get laid, are plentiful. And some of them like to be bossed around because finding a woman who both knows herself and is not afraid to be aggressive is kind of a rare thing.

I think even writing this post is an attempt to get laid. It just occurred to me that your post is accurate on every level.