well, i have to say, at first i thought the title was clickbait, and possibly written by some old russian dude trying to gain steem, but honestly, its a pretty insightful and very personal article, and takes a lot of self awareness to write. You also seem to be doing it for the right reasons, both as a self affirmational statement of accepting your inner self and your needs, desires and plans in life, and somehow at the same time an honest attempt at communication...a lifeline to those who find the whole process of online dating distasteful. congratulations.