Ponderings about Getting Attention

Hi!!
I haven’t been here in a while.
If I had more engagement and feedback, I would.
Otherwise, I use my instagram and my own journal to record my journey.

Either way,
I love blogging.

I was thinking about something today as I post this picture of myself...
I never really liked being the center of attention.
In high school, I basically (thought I was) invisible.

Everyone wants to be acknowledged, known and understood.
Of course I wanted that.
But being a virgo self conscious insecure girl, I did not want to be the topic of discussion.

Nevertheless, I was talked about. This went on in college, where I really blossomed into my true self.
Being myself attracted others to me, and I became well known in my community.

I wasn’t seeking to be known.
I still liked my privacy.
I always wanted to be able to be myself, which I found hard to do if eyes were on me.
I broke through that on many occasions however. and shines anyway.

At this time in my life, I’m really into activism.
Now I WANT to be heard.
I also love to inspire, educated and connect.
So once again, there is this dilemma between having attention vs expressing the message I want to share.

I’ve thought about wearing a mask.
Using social media as a tool and only showing my mouth and body.
i’ve pinderes this, yes.
How can I be most truly myself, stand up for what I believe in, and not feel like IM the center of attention, but rather that my message is?

I can’t say that I know the answer.