Dude! I'm glad you wrote this. I went down some similar roads looking for self help and figuring out life and like you I saw that it was all smoke and mirrors (but it took a while). My biggest breakthrough was just saying "Wait, these guys are all full of it. That means there isn't anything wrong with me, I'm just as smart as they are. I'm going to stop following and start leading (myself)". Basically, I resolved to sort it out on my own.

That's what lead me to things like NLP. I stopped looking for help and starting looking for TOOLS. The next few years have been INSANE. Traveling the world, meeting amazing people, doing things I never dreamed possible.

Glad to have you here man!