Oh man..... I feel like your describing me to a T.
Pretty crazy how similar some people can be to others .... I know I need to follow you now. Not that me relating in every word you describe yourself is the only reason I would but its most definitely gives me more perked interest in what you've got to offer besides skills I've noticed by checkin out your work. Not eating because of getting so in the zone that all of a sudden it's 2 am and breakfast is all you've eaten from the morning before . My daily routine for me as well. I feel ya on addiction being a lack of true inner happiness... For me it's tied to the fact that my entire life I literally have woken up every day wondering about how I can make this world a better place. Almost like the cursed side of being an empathic born lacking the ability to not marry the emotions of who or whatever I get snagged on trying to help have a better existence. Makeing it so I forget about my own well being. By trying to make this world a better place I blind myself to all the amazing shit this world has to offer which I try to bring out in others in the first place. Then putting myself in that dark place by default. Then getting myself in the rut by realizing that I can't make the world a better place for others. They have ta do it for themselves but to only live my life in in a way as healthy as possible and making it so I live a life that creates the least bumpiest ride for others so they can find their own happiness with minimal obstacles. That's why stumbling upon this social media platform has been a pretty badass thing. Hoping this actually is a stomping ground for pivotal avenues to greater and better things. Trying my hardest not to get the hook too deep of the potential Steem might have. Which I think it does . I see this little pocket as a good one. Tons of solid info and amazing people surfacing here then most any place I've been in a while.
Well shit , as you can see.... We're a lot alike. Sitting on a bus in Cali , 4:30 am.... Rambling feverishly. Forcing myself to stop so I spare you and the Steemit crew from never wanting to read any of my work. Thanks for sharing all to got ta share. I Dig it.... Keep on puttin out the goods. We all are Lovin it. Peace on the playground & keep the steem a rising !

Go eat something would ya..? For both of us :)