I used to be very religious in the sense that I puniah myself for supposedly doing what God doesnt want me to or to condem those that do not follow the laws of God. I reach a point where I realized how twisted the idea is. I began to search for understanding and found philosophy as the best school of thought. Though I now believe in the essence of Buddhsm from Christianity, I continue to live a rather carfefree natural orientation to life and see the world as devoid of really inherent meaning aka I am an existentialist