You've chosen what is suitable for you but you risk a lot if you're wrong. Some poeple know you're wrong but will not help you until you realize this for yourself. Blaming others that they are not perfect and yes some of them using religion to harm others will not help you in the end. But you've made your decision and everyone should accept that. You're writing that nobody know what happends when you die... I've gathered over 100 testimonies from people and most of them experienced clicinal death and so you can hear their after-death experiences if you're brave enough - https://steemit.com/jesus/@jimmco/how-many-testimonies-you-need-to-believe-in-heaven-and-hell-will-this-be-enough-warning-serious-stuff-and-page-can-load-slowly