Is it all really so black and white?
Sometimes I just want to be in my emotional self, to really experience the emotion I'm having. Being emotional is part of life. If I really want to experience a loss... so that I can pick up from it later, what lessons there are in life from the experience, then so be it.
And so it is; it's fun sometimes to have temporary pleasure. Enough, that I can put that behind me at some point, recognize it's failings, and be done with it, or practice those things only socially.