Hey there, I'm a 25 year old neurodivergent with MDD, BPD and C-PTSD
I've taken a fair share of classes, BPD courses and just generally struggled with the meaninglessness of life. Here's my best advice, and I'd love to hear yours in the comments.
Reminding yourself you could always die later - this may sound counter intuitive, but really it helps to tell myself "things are already this bad, I've survived the last 5 minutes, let's ride it out and see if its worth dying about". Obviously, I'm still here.
Taking up new or retrying old hobbies - at the end of the day, its all about the ratio of fulfillment to existential dread. If you're already having suicidal ideations, there's not a lot to worry about as far as looking stupid. Why not try that sport or collect those things? There's an online or IRL community for everything these days, and its often nice to make new friends (especially from the comfort of home).
Accepting that something "ultimately meaninglessness" is not inherently devoid of purpose. We all assign our own purposes. Find what fulfills you instead of the nothingness killing you. Save the earth, spread knowledge, build or create something. The act of success and learning fire off solid dopamine.
Objects of comfort - pet a cat, visit your best friend's dog, eat your favorite food, see someone that always cheers you up or talk to someone you respect and enjoy. Self-care is important and comfort is key. Look into weighted blankets if you're anxious in bed.
In general my best advice is a combination of self-care and outside help. You know yourself best but you can't be expected to do it all when you don't even want to wake up in the morning.
Hi! Thank you for sharing your advice :) I don't have suicidal ideation but I do have some existential anxiety, and I think that all the things you've listed can help with anxiety as well. For me guided mindfulness meditation (youtube videos) and yoga helps too. But talking to a friend works best. Then suddenly the things that used to feel really scary start to feel more interesting instead. Good job finding out what helps you when you're having a hard time and thank you again for sharing! I wish more people had the courage to talk about their experiences. I wish you all the best in the future and look forward to reading more of your posts :) Mia
Wow, as often as everyone suggests yoga (I do it at home almost every day) I can't believe I spaced it! I dig yoga a lot and I'm certain its because its the ideal ratio of exercise to meditation.