One thing I have found very difficult to deal with is everyone's expectations of me. I've been through so much hardship in life and have been an open book about it. And for one reason or another I've been extremely resilient. People think that because I've got such a thick skin regarding all I've been through in life that I'm always OK and perfectly willing AND able to give myself fully to whatever endeavors. Truth is I'm falling apart on the inside little by little each day. Maybe more than a little.