Wanted to leave a comment when I first saw this, but thought the timing was bad. Not that it's any better now, but I guess no time is better than late. :)

Thanks for the recommendation of SOZO. Will check them out later.

I read your piece with a mix of thoughts. At one point, it's true that happiness is found within, along with self-worth, confidence and purpose. But at the same time, I have also ground accustomed to making myself happier when I make other happier. I hate to admit it, but putting a smile on someone's face does lift my heart, and because of the positive effect it has on me, I guess I have become addicted to it too. Actions executed gingerly back in the past now becomes a well-built muscle, so much so that it also becomes a defense mechanism when I'm faced with adversity, or worse, when humor wasn't appropriate.

Thanks for the reminder to self-reflect. It's good to be conscious of our actions and consequences, for change to happen.

Hope all is ok with you too :)