I am sorry to you are going through tough times but my guess is that the majority of people suffers from depression, anxiety or psychosis... Just like their governments. I believe in epigenetics asserting that the environment is a big part of the problem. One heals oneself faster when realizing that the world today makes very little sense.

watch 'the century of the self', on youtube, that's a jaw dropping 5H documentary that will be worth your time

Every human being is born with a 'fear of being' that springs from cosmic abandonment, that each individual is aware of the vast universe. This is a PTSD so to speak that has been cultivated from a generation to the next, and which must be let go. The western materialistic education just greatly increases the fear of being.