To your post, i just want to say sorry that you are going through what you're going through. I can understand you on this issue 100%. I can say that you have the right idea about bettering yourself. I don't know you but I can tell that you definitely have the potential in you. Your effort and a never give up mindset is your best friend in these situations. And just keeping up with your posts, reading and commenting will just remind you of the support of your followers and people who genuinely care, too. This is my first day on this site and I have already encountered wonderful people here. And besides therapy, you have friends, family, and others here willing to listen and elevate you. It's nice to hear someone else is out there like me and Is getting better, its always nice knowing you're not alone in these situations.