Sighs.... I don't know from which angle to take this. It is really tough on you, and you have also mirrored my own frustration, my dilemma concerning this steemit stuff. Where is the time? And what do I do to create time?, without which one will not be able to realise One's full potentials on this platform. Well, my candid advice is this: keep your regular job for now , be ready for the stress that will come with it , knowing that doggedness will crown your efforts with success in the long run. Know when to take it really slow by listening to your health indicators . Most importantly, apply wisdom in execution of these tasks. By God's grace, we will all get there one day.