Fear

As look into your eyes
its like a ghost in the night
Frightful, yet mysterious
Afraid that you'll hurt me, so i don't open up
Afraid to show emotions, so i don't reciprocate love
See love can do certain things, you can be the happiest person without a single thing
Every since your gone from my life something's missing
I don't find joy in anything, Sometimes i still think about the good times
About the poem and rhymes
I wrote to see you smile and it made me feel cool
Damn how carefree we were back in high school
So care free, always drinking and partying like there's no tomorrow
But it turned out there was no more tomorrow
A week before our 6 months anniversary, you were gone from my life
I hope your still up there, looking down and smiling right?
I havent talked to your family every since, could barely muster the energy to show up to your funeral
Because that was the same day we got together 6 months ago.
I still think about you everyday, i regret throwing away our album
but at the time it hurt so much, Drugs became my problem
Im happy now and i found a girl that cares about me as much as you did
but sometimes i just think from time to time, what if?
What if you never got into your friend's car?
But what ifs isnt going to bring you back, so i can only like up at the stars
Praying that your smiling back from afar
I will always love and miss you, Vicki.

05/29/1995- 02/12/2012